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Monday Moment: Preparing for Home

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~Now that I have been gone for so long

I realize the place to which I belong

I miss those familiar things that make me feel protected

That place I can shelter from the unknown prospected

Soon I will feel the warmth of my own bed

My teddy bear nestled between my shoulder and head

I’ll know where I can find my perfect delights

I can be assured where I sleep each night

The countdown is on and I’m going to soon be home

I’ve seen Paris, Barcelona, England and even Rome!

I wandered through cities like Edinburgh, Bergen, and Berlin

I went sightseeing in Venice and Florence with a big perma-grin 🙂

I explored some of India and in the hot sun I would wake

And of course, I went to Amsterdam and got totally baked!

Three more countries to go as I enjoy Argentina

A touch of luxury ahead with hot tubs and piscinas

I will finally see the great mountains of Machu Pichu

It’s amazing what this wonderful world can teach you

More adventure awaits as the last leg unfolds

I have so many tales that need to be told

So many stories that don’t seem like they’re actually real

I can’t even describe the many feelings I feel

My home is waiting and I’m just about there

I’m finishing off with a BANG!! And then once more…

I’ll fly UP UP UP high in the air!!

I can not express how grateful I am

Boy oh boy… I’m going to have the most incredible Instagram!!

My dreams have come true each and every day

I’ve lived life to the fullest in every possible way ❤

Good Morning, Good Evening Monday!

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Good morning Monday, or should I say good evening?

My clock is ahead and my friends back home are still sleeping.

My day is ending when theirs has only begun.

I see the end of the day and they see the beginning of the sun.

Bonjour, bonsoir, bonne après-midi…

Which part of the day will all of us see?

Paris is cloudy and the air has a chill.

That sure does not stop me from having my thrills.

Last night or this morning I saw a wonderful site.

Gazed once more at the Eiffel Tower and had a marvelous night.

Arise, my dear friends, it’s a new day and you’re free!

Your morning, my night, today… aujourd’hui.

From Paris, with love. ❤

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Thursday Thoughts: Learning to Love Myself Again Xo

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I think a lot. And by a lot, I mean A LOT!

My mind is made up of multiple wheels turning in every direction, so naturally when I experience something painful it hurts in all kinds of different ways. Maybe it’s just the cycle you go through after your heart has been broken. But for me it feels so much deeper than I would’ve imagined. After 4 years with one person it has been extremely difficult to be alone with my crazy mind. My thoughts seem to take over.

It’s been about 3 months now and I do feel like the worst of it has passed. But there are still times when I’m alone that my heart starts to ache repeatedly. I still lie awake wondering how I got to that point where I am alone in my bed. I feel like I never want to let myself fall in love with anyone ever again. One time seems painful enough.

Then I start to think about others who have shared their stories with me when it comes to heartache and pain. When there is marriage and children involved and many years of counseling, I can’t even begin to understand how that feels.

Moving on…

I have been so lucky to have the most loving friends who have helped me through this break up. They have lifted me up and made me laugh. They have said so many loving things to me to try to help me remember who I really am and that I matter. I am not just a broken heart.

The hardest part is writing about my most recent travel experience in Costa Rica; the trip that I thought would bring us closer together. How do I write about that? Do I just write him out of all the stories I want to tell? Do I include him in the adventures I reminisce about? I’m torn between wanting to forget and needing to remember. After all, he was there with me and we had that wonderful experience together.

Maybe some of my blogger friends can shed some light on this situation.

How do you bring yourself to write about someone who broke your heart?

How do you get the words out while you are still hurting so much?

How do I share my story when I just want to forget about him?

I know I am worth more than I feel I am now and I know that my heart won’t always hurt. After so much reflection and self affirmations I feel like my old self is slowly returning. I do feel happy, but when I sit down to write the pain comes flooding back.

How do I stop this from happening?

How do I learn to love myself again?

Letter to a Lost Love xo Moving on Monday

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Dearest Lost Love,

I felt as though I owed you a great special surprise for your birthday this year. I had started planning a while ago. I was making a list of the things you loved: knives, machetes, climbing gear and mail. I’ll never understand why you loved receiving mail so much, but it always made you so happy to open it even if it was just a bill.

It would’ve been a grand bouquet of sharp things wrapped in rope with a bottle of scotch on the side. There would have been our first adventure book that I had begun to put together with our first travel memories from Costa Rica. I was hoping to add to that book as the years passed by. I was hoping to get all of your loved ones to mail you letters and cards all at once. I was planning on making a private Facebook page called: Surprise letters for (I can’t even say your name without pain now). It doesn’t really matter anymore.

It was such a splendid idea. Two weeks before your special day, I would’ve told everyone to write to you so all the mail would arrive all at the same time. The mailbox would’ve been overflowing with love from your friends and family who you love so dearly. You always wanted me to include them in our lives. They would’ve wrote to you about the memories and fun times you had shared. They would’ve wrote the things they loved about you. I still grin at my master plan. The look on your face would’ve been priceless.

But alas, my plans have been shattered by the cold space between us. I had lost you some time ago but had held on for dear life. When I realized you did not feel for me the way I felt for you, I wasn’t sure which direction to go. Maybe I shouldn’t have said anything at all. Maybe if I’d stayed complacent you would still be holding me in your arms. Maybe that feeling of emptiness would’ve passed.

When you walked away from me that day I thought I was in a bad dream. But as the nightmare unfolded, my heart crumpled within my chest and I realized it was all too real. Now as I sit here writing out my master plan I know it will never happen. 

Maybe I would’ve made you fall in love with me. 

For it was I who asked what it was you truly wanted. For when that moment arrived and you paused and did not know what to say, I knew you did not want to fall in love with me. There will be no letters. There will be no special gifts from my heart. For I don’t feel my heart anymore.

So now I’m moving on, Monday. Now I have to say goodbye to a lost love I don’t even know anymore. Maybe you never truly loved me at all. Maybe one day you will read this, or maybe you won’t. Maybe this letter is not the one you were hoping for. I don’t know because I have lost you…

My dearest lost love xo

Good Morning Ground Hogs Day AND Happy Birthday to my Mommy!! xo

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550849_10151730032630444_79610808_n~I’ll never forget how good she has been to me 🙂 Happy Birthday to my Mommy xox

It was a few years back and I was upset about something someone had said to me. I was feeling that familiar feeling. I needed my Mommy. So I called… the tears were escaping their way out and I cried to her as if I were a child again. I remember her voice being so calm and soothing. She told me she was proud of me as she always does and told me to live my life the way I want. I am forever grateful for her wisdom.

Two weeks later I received a letter in the mail. It was thick with papers and other documents. It was a package from my Momma. I opened the envelope to see what was inside and as I did the tears instantly poured from my eyes. Out fell pictures of me and my little brother as kids, papers I had written in elementary school and old report cards with my straight A’s. And with these memories was a simple hand written note that read:

Hi Honey,

Just a few things to remind you who you are. Don’t let anyone say or do anything to change that. I love you just the way you are with all my heart. Be happy for you, not anyone else. LOVE YOU, LOVE YOU, LOVE YOU.

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Your Mommy xox

And with a smiling sunshine to end the sweet note my heart was filled with more love than I could ever imagine.

To the only person in my life who makes sure I know how proud she is… for the woman who made me who I am today… here’s to my Mommy 😀 I love you more than anything in this world!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! 🙂

Ok yes I have shared this note before, but it still brings so many tears of joy I think it’s worth sharing again 😉 I guess I just really LOVE my Mommy!

 ~In A Mothers Eyes~

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May springs arrival be just around the corner… if the groundhog doesn’t see its shadow!!

 

Good Morning Monday! A Christmas Wish for my Followers!

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christmas-ornament-513506_1280With Christmas only a few days away, this is a special good morning Monday!

I would like to wish YOU a very happy week and send out a virtual *hug* to my faithful followers 🙂

~May your Christmas be full of love and joy. May you relish in this hallmark holiday and make it your own. For Christmas is what you make it to be and even though I don’t necessarily agree with the materialistic side of things, it’s nice to give gifts to loved ones and see their faces on Christmas morning.

A gift can be anything! It can be a song you wrote for your family, a hand-made item, some delicious cookies or a newspaper article that was published last month 😉 which is what I’m giving to my parents this Christmas. These are the types of gifts I love giving.

So my tiny gift to you on this; the second day of winter: A Tiny Christmas Poem 😀 For my followers! Happy Solstice!

A hug and a kiss for a true Christmas wish
A song and dance after a scrumptious fine dish
A day we can share with our loved ones we care
A message of love you don’t want to miss

I don’t know your face, your voice or your touch
But I just want to thank you so very much
For reading my blog and sharing your joy
Your “likes” are like little hugs and kisses and such 🙂

I send you positivity through this virtual world
The vibrations of hope to every boy and every girl
A vision of happiness through the wires and lines
May our souls of prosperity be virtually intertwined

My tiny Christmas wish to all of you wonderful souls
Is to have peace and sanctuary whether you are young or old
For if we are to change the world for the better
It’s going to take more than an ugly Christmas sweater

Let us all rejoice together
Rain or snow or whatever the weather
Near or far it doesn’t take a bus or a car
Right here we can have luck in our endeavors

This is our world in the grand blogosphere
We can share the Christmas love even if we’re not near
So this my tiny wish to you:

I wish you the best my fellow follower; my dear xo

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May your week be full of Christmas LOVE!! 😀 Happy Holidays to all my blogger friends out there ❤

Love ~T

 

 

You Are Here. So Be Here xo LOVE!

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~I’ve written posts like this before… and I will continue to write them again and again. It is the only message that matters. You matter xo You are here. So be here.

People may criticize you and I for believing; for having hope. Haters will hate. Pessimists will demonize. They just need a little love xo

Hard times will be had by all every single day. Things will not go your way and you may not finish what you have begun. There will be days when getting out of bed seems pointless. You will have a broken heart time and time again.

Someone will hurt you. Some day your world will crumble… maybe today is that day.

BUT

You are here. So be here. LOVE!

As people, we have a choice. We have the ultimate decision. We choose what tomorrow will bring.

Some day you may fall down that rabbit hole and spiral around and around out of control until you can no longer see what is happening on the walls of the tunnel. You may not see it, but it is there. You may not feel it, but it is there. Inside you…

Love xo

I spread this message of love to all of you who are reading my words because I’ve seen it time and time again. Love that is lost and love that is stagnant. It may be dormant, but it’s still right here with you.

See the beauty, the colors and all of the LOVE that surrounds us. Capture it!

I have seen bad days and I have lost many people who I’ve loved dearly. I have been down that rabbit hole many times and I have stayed in bed for too long, crying too many tears. But love is here within me. Love is all around us. This message of love is for all of us to share. Share with those who need it most and shoot that love out of your heart to those who don’t accept it.

Because one day they will see. One day they will accept the love they deserve and spread that love to those who need it.

We are ALL here. So be here. LOVE!

People may read this post and think. “Not again…” and cringe or sigh because I keep shooting out of my heart this love they do not know how to accept. But I will not cease. For it is only love that will bring us through these hard times. It is ONLY LOVE that will heal the world and it is only love I want to give.

So be here. Have the love we all need. Share the love.

You are here. So be here. 🙂 And invite everyone else to be here too. A tiny bit of love goes a very long way. How will you spread love today?

Love ~T

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Good Morning Monday!

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A good morning Monday to you!

hand-302802_1280Change is in the cool winter air and I know that change must start with me
There is so much good in the world I want everyone to see
I won’t focus on the negative because that will drive me mad

I don’t want to feel angry, hurt or sad

When an adorable little girl dances in a subway station and others join in
When a young student pushes herself so hard she can’t feel her legs but she still wins!
An elephant sees the ocean for the first time and is filled with joy
A sea creature on a dinner plate is mourned by one loving little boy

There is so much good in the world to see
We must be the change we have to be
When a man leaves his career behind to feed and care for the poor
All a dying girl wants are Christmas cards for her last Christmas… she wants nothing more
A mother dies and leaves behind a beautiful baby
A father is tragically killed but his son is saved and his mother thinks, “Just maybe…”

She will thank and honor those who were there
She will cherish each person who cared
Cared enough to not think twice… they did what they had to do and finally someone came through to say, “Thank you.”

If you look hard enough you will see that we are the change the world needs us to be xox

Have a wonderful week full of change and hope 🙂

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My 1 Year Blogiversary Apology xox

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To my dearest Tiny Blog:

Today is a special 1 Year Blogiversary!

You have grown so much over the past year, but it’s only been in the last few months that your growth spurt has really taken off… and it’s all my fault.

So I just want to say… I’m sorry xo

I’m sorry I didn’t utilize your full potential until recently. I should have paid more attention to you in those first 8 months because if I had you would’ve been much more advanced by now. Although we are both still growing together, I am so very proud to have such a beautiful little blog to call my own 🙂

You complete me.

My baby blog is not a baby anymore and I can’t wait to see what happens in the years to come. You have shown me a way to express myself once again. You have invited wonderful people to our page and have connected me with the amazing talented bloggers this small corner of the interwebs holds. I am so very grateful.

There are over 15oo followers to date on Tee’s Tiny Blog and to all of those people who have stuck around I just want to say THANK YOU!!

I love you tiny blog and we are not going anywhere!! We made it here together 😀

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